Maybe I've become an actual Blogger!

Yeah, I completely doubt the title of this blog. I think that I have just had a good week, but most likely by the middle of next week I will forget to blog again.

Today's focus: My sleep pattern. Or should we say my extreme lack of a sleep pattern. As of the last two weeks I've barely gotten more than two hours a sleep a night. But finally last night I slept for about 14 hours. I don't want that to continue to happen. If only I could get at least 4 to 5 hours every night I think that I will be okay.

Well, my brain is still completely fried and I can't think of anything else to blog about so it's time to stop boring you all. See you tomorrow I hope.

Good Day to you!

Well, I've been on a roll so I have to blog today even though truly I have absolutely nothing to say. Let's just say that St. Patrick's Day hurt me very much. No throwing up, but barely remember what time I went to bed. It will be quite a memorial St. Patrick's Day. I'm just going to leave it at that.

Today I am going "Green"

Like I would actually become completely environmentally conscious? That's a silly thing to believe. I'm from the great state of Michigan where gas guzzling cars are made and continue to roam the potholed streets.

I'm going "Green" for St. Patrick's Day of course. We've already made it a point to have Jameson, Guinness, and Bailey's in our home for this lovely occasion and I'm not going to lie I'm drinking Bailey's in my coffee this morning. I think in celebration of this wonderful holiday I am not going to do anything today. I'm just going to sit and drink and waste my day away until I have to go to Keri's birthday party tonight and celebrate St. Keri's Day. Then possibly have a drink or two out on the town. Doubt that though because we have little munchkins who need to go to school in the morning so I'm thinking Grandma and Grandpa aren't going to want to watch them for the night.

I am totally looking forward to this weekend. I'm hoping to see a couple of old friends while I am home to see the great Bay City St. Patrick's Day parade. Saturday going to hang with family and who knows what Sunday will include.

So to all people who think drinking is bad I am going to ignore you until next week because I have a feeling that alcohol will be running through my veins until Monday morning.

Good day to you all and drink a green beer for me and don't forget to kiss an Irish fool. Love you all!

Let's say it together, "Three days in a row!"

Okay, I know that there must be something completely out of whack to make me actually utilize my blog three days in a row, but I kind of like it. I've always liked writing and it wasn't until I was a little bit older that I actually got kind of good at it. The biggest problem is I don't always write down what is in my head. Sometimes I think of these great little things and say to myself, "I need to write this down." This always happens about the time I go to sleep. I think my mind is most active when it isn't supposed to be. And of course when I say to myself, "I need to write this down," I always follow it with, "I'll remember it in the morning and I can do it then." I must take advantage of my brain even if it is inconvenient to me. So saying this I am going to finish writing now. I shall await the moment when I have a pretty cool thought and I will pick up my notebook and try to find a really cool pen (I love gel ink and different colors). Then I will let the writing flow. Until then I am finished.

What's up?

When I wake in the morning and I step outside

I take a deep breath and I get real high

Screaming from the top of my lungs

What's going on?

And I say

Hey yay yay yay Hey yay yay

I say Hey, what's going on?

Yes I would desperately like to thank the 4 Non Blondes for that wonderful song. It makes me think about how happy I am when I sing it during karaoke. Yes, I do sing karaoke, and no, I'm not very good at it.

This morning has so far started out absolutely wonderfully. Jay actually got up without much trying from me and was on the road early to run a few errands. Me, on the other hand, do not want to leave the comfort of my bed and lap-top and go work out. So actually blogging two days in a row is my excuse for being lazy.

So what should today's subject be? Yesterday it was friends and love. Today it should be my complete and total hatred of the employment situation in America.

I don't see myself as a stupid person. Yes, I don't have a Bachelor's degree and no, I'm not going to school anymore to improve on that. This being said I do at least have an Associate's degree and ten years experience in the United States Army. You think that would get me somewhere. Well, I hate to break it to all of you out there who think veteran's get a free ride, but we don't.

I can't get a job even at the local gas station because they tell me that I have too much experience. Well, too much experience is better than nothing so give me the gosh darn job!

And of course it doesn't help that I really can't explain what I did in the Army to most people because a big chunk of it was classified. All I really can say is that I talked to local nationals while I was in Iraq and tried to get intelligence information from them. From there I reported the information and if it was substantial some infantrymen would be sent out to take care of it. Other than that I can tell them I was a glorified secretary wearing a uniform. And let me tell you, I'm one damn good secretary, but I can't even get a job doing that.

Well I believe that is all for today. Let's end it with the real 4 Non Blondes

OH I forgot

I guess in addition to my earlier blog I want to add a video that Jay's younger brother Ethan shared with me on facebook. It is absolutely wonderful. Of course, if you're not a Charlie Sheen fan this does not apply to you.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zg7Ub09gPg4&feature=player_embedded

Yes, I know!

Yes, I have to admit I'm not much of a blogger. No, it does not mean that I don't care to share my view with all of you. I guess that I have found that it is much easier to have numerous daily status reports on facebook and twitter than it is to actually blog my extremely boring life to you. But it does not mean that I don't love my very few blog followers that I have.

Life has been extremely boring as usual. Things have gotten a little more interesting because Jay and I have finally had over a month of having absolute total happiness and bliss. It's not that we haven't always loved each other and known that we are going to be together, but there was much uneasiness over the last few months. I believe most of it has been because of the extremely difficult financial situation we have been in.

I have found that for the last month and a half I have been much happier than I have been in a long time. I can't understand exactly why, but I have a few ideas what could be causing it. I do know that I am truly enjoying this time without depression. I never realized how truly depressed I was until the last year or two. I know I have had periods of depression throughout my life, but never realized how much it truly effects me.

I've always thought of myself as an extremely happy person, but I've found to realize that it is more a show for others than it is true happiness. I believe that I may have ruined many relationships because of this and I am not going to let that happen anymore.

My biggest concern right now is my relationship with Jay. I love him more than any other person I have ever been in a relationship with. A great example of this is the fact that we have been together for five years. I never had a relationship for even half of that time before.

I'm also happy that I have mended many relationships that I ruined early on in my life. I have found friends that I had lost in high school and have realized why they were my friends in the first place. Kelly and Stephanie are two wonderful examples of this. Even though we only speak through facebook I have found that I look forward to their posts everyday. It makes me remember what absolutely wonderful people they are. Also to my many Army friends I have kept in contact with. If I still speak to you, even if it is only a few times a month, I do truly appreciate the friends you are to me. There are only a few that I truly feel this way about and that is Dibben, Brandon, Miranda, Gary, Adina, yet another Miranda, Spiro, and Maldy. I may not tell you all, but I truly cherish your friendship.

Well, I believe that is all. I'm going to go and play on facebook and watch some tv. I'm also going to keep my fingers crossed for Jay or I hoping one of us moves on to phase three of Charlie's internship.